I’m excited to share that After Alexei published my short story “l’appel du vide”.
I learned that though we all experience invasive thoughts that constantly sit in the back of our minds, sometimes reminders can be deeply affecting.
For that reason, I’m not sorry for writing it. This story came from me writing these thoughts down to manage them. It’s a fictional story where all of these images invade the narrator, too. In 2008, when the first draft was written, this was a way to manage these thoughts.
I am both sorry and thankful that …
… my readers have this shared experience to the extent that my story makes a connection.
… you’ve ever thought about these things to the extent that I have.
…this exposed the wounds we share and made you feel vulnerable enough to talk to someone about it.
I’m thankful that my friend is getting help. I am here for anyone that wants to talk if this story brings up anything difficult or uncomfortable. Email me firstname.lastname@example.org or contact me through twitter @dreaminventor
I have learned 2 lessons from this:
1. Writing has the ability to force people to examine their own experiences. This is sometimes very painful.
2. Not everyone is ready for that. It’s okay to need a warning about graphic content regarding suicide, or suicidal ideation.
I love every single person that reads this story. You are a beautiful part of my life. I honor you and your struggles. If you are currently suicidal or feel that you may be at risk, please do not read this story. If this story brings up any difficult feelings, 24/7 help is available via these hotlines:
Austria: 142; for children and young people, 147
Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05
Brazil: 188 for the CVV National Association
Canada: 1.833.456.4566, 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal)
Estonia: 3726558088; in Russian 3726555688
Finland: 010 195 202
Hong Kong: +852 2382 0000
New Zealand: 0800543354
Portugal: 21 854 07 40/8 . 96 898 21 50
South Africa: 0514445691
United Kingdom: 08457909090
Veterans’ Crisis Line: 1 800 273 8255/ text 838255
With that, here’s the actual link to my story: