It’s just the poem – it’s now live on Coffee House Writers. A limited release hardback with fancy photography, less fancy paperback, and hardback versions of a poetry collection called “l’Identité Politique” will be made available for pre-order starting on Black Friday. These three projects may have a soft release earlier with some super secret links, so keep an eye out on Twitter and Instagram as the proofs come in.
For those that are curious about the title:
If you are struggling with your holiday shopping list, remember that Indie Books and Art are great gifts. I’m going to start dedicating space to featured artists and authors more. Previously I didn’t have a grasp of how interviews could be misconstrued as more than just conveying information.
If you would like to have your book or art featured with a snippet about it, you, and a link to your website, please send me a DM on Twitter, Instagram, and/or email.
That’s it 🙂 That’s the whole thing.
Here’s a current draft cover for the softcover:
More details to come (and an explanation as to why A Hundred Different Skies is being released *very differently*)
Oh, and we’re going to be moving, but I think I may have mentioned that at one point? Anyways.
I now have a channel on Twitch so you have an opportunity to hang out with me while I’m reading antique books, editing photographs, researching photographs, writing, and doing historic document research. As a general warning: my research on primary documents from the 19th and early 20th century can be disturbing. I find out information on what society believed during this time period that may be distressing to some individuals, so viewer discretion is advised.
On occasion I would like to also get our uploading capabilities set such that I can play Steam games with friends, or even Among Us.
Each stream will be titled based on what I am doing. I will get side tracked. In my first stream today I got side tracked with a hand-and-cheek tug-o-war vaudevillian style impromptu comedy performance and it was *fun*. Other interruptions you can expect will include Nyxie playing the piano and Jacob popping into chat.
It’s 2020. I need an excuse to start putting on make up and doing my hair. I need an excuse to start speaking aloud to get used to the sound of my own voice again. I need to interact with human beings outside the house in a way that isn’t potentially life threatening.
I haven’t come up with a streaming schedule yet. Most likely it will be for only a couple hours at a time Monday through Friday. Any weekend hours will be a shocking surprise.
As I work to get this set up, I appreciate patience. At this time, I am limited by frustrations with Spectrum internet being our only option and also *the worst*. Don’t know what I mean?
This is my maximum capability right now.
That’s not really great if I want to interact with people or do much on Twitch. So, we’re working on it. I’m looking forward to being able to interact in real time.
My first stream went live and I hope I didn’t scare too many people away as we were discussing John Cowan, M.D.’s 1915 version of his book “The Science Of A New Life” where we examined an example of the intersection early feminism, the Temperance Movement, the American Eugenics Movement, American Spiritism, Mesmerism, and the many other social movements that were going on prior to the U.S.’s involvement in World War I.
A year ago I started this website on the same day my nephew was born. Since then a few things have happened.
A global pandemic hit.
My nephew survived the first year of his life.
I left a job. Earned two healthcare/public health certifications while continuing to gain many new skills. I made decisions regarding the future direction for my career in healthcare.
I grew as a person and became brave enough to share my artistic expression all thanks to an incredible community of writers and artists online. This website began with book reviews to focus on talking about a community I admired, but I honestly was not brave enough to see myself as a part of.
I became a twice published short story author and a published poet. (not including self publishing here)
From 9 October 2019 through 31 December 2019 I had a total of:
I never could have dreamed that this could possibly mean that in 1 year I would have (these totals taken from adding up totals from 9 October 2019 – 9 October 2020):
None of this would have been possible without the 3,144 visitors that came to this website. The 50 comments people left. The 301 likes.
Most of all I want to thank every single author that I reviewed and every single person I plan to review in the future. I want to thank the people that have been patient with my social awkwardness as I try to navigate a creative community. Thank you for helping me create social connections when this is something I have struggled with my whole life. Thank you for understanding that everything I do is with good intent.
There are some people that have been extraordinary to me that I want to recognize and thank in no particular order:
If I left anyone out of this list that feels they should be on it, please do not hesitate to reach out and let me know. My intent is to offer gratitude and not to exclude anyone. Thank you again. You have all taught me so much.
And thank you to the readers that have joined me over the past year and watched as this website transformed. Without you, these words would be lost into the void of the internet. You make these words mean something beyond their creation.
My first serial fiction reached its conclusion today with Part 8: Into The Light. This story pushed me to write my first happy ending with a triumphant heroine story arc.
My next step with this story is to assemble the parts, then expand and rewrite it for adaptation into a novella. This will let me expand on the tender flashbacks Deidre experiences as her memories of Madison return to her.
When I started writing this story, after reviewing the premise with a friend I love, I intended to target cis audiences to help them understand trans experiences. As the parts of this story came out, JK Rowling demonstrated her complete lack of understanding, making this story more valuable. There is an archetype of narcissism in some parts of our society that refuses to accept the identity of a child beyond how they are named and the assumption based on traits observed at birth.
I purposefully left many details ambiguous and do not plan to clarify these in the adaptation. This is to emphasize the unimportance of these details in regards to the characters’ identities.
The details I chose to emphasize are those that are most important when listening to the life stories of trans women, such as battles with body image, the complex relationships with cosmetics and clothing, and the difficult impacts coming out has had on their relationships with their parents. Additionally, what I hope to have conveyed is that Deidre, and all trans women, are not inherently victims. They are the heroines of their own stories by defying a world where almost all systems are set up against them.
Of the women I spoke with, all mentioned that the relationships with their mothers were among the most helpful and harmful depending on the responses. Thus, Katherine emerged as the antagonist, going so far as to physically act out the emotional and verbal abuses described by some of the women I am lucky enough to call my friends.
I do not pretend to tell my friends’ stories – this is a work of fiction and is intended to communicate realities to a reader through the eyes of a fictional character. Though heavily researched, this story has room for improvements I look forward to adding in the adaptation as I work with more resources and sensitivity readers to make sure I hit all the important details I may have missed this first time through.
In the meantime, I want to mention that “Waking Up” is dedicated to all transgender persons struggling for acceptance in a narcissistic world, denying them of the most basic human right: the autonomy to live and express your own identity in whatever way you see fit for yourself and your happiness.
Thank you for taking the time to read about “Waking Up” – each part is linked below:
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this today. I hope you enjoy “Waking Up” – please like, comment, and share this story. This will help me gain feedback as I move forward into its expansion and improvement into a novella.