A year ago I started this website on the same day my nephew was born. Since then a few things have happened.
A global pandemic hit.
My nephew survived the first year of his life.
I left a job. Earned two healthcare/public health certifications while continuing to gain many new skills. I made decisions regarding the future direction for my career in healthcare.
I grew as a person and became brave enough to share my artistic expression all thanks to an incredible community of writers and artists online. This website began with book reviews to focus on talking about a community I admired, but I honestly was not brave enough to see myself as a part of.
I became a twice published short story author and a published poet. (not including self publishing here)
From 9 October 2019 through 31 December 2019 I had a total of:
I never could have dreamed that this could possibly mean that in 1 year I would have (these totals taken from adding up totals from 9 October 2019 – 9 October 2020):
None of this would have been possible without the 3,144 visitors that came to this website. The 50 comments people left. The 301 likes.
Most of all I want to thank every single author that I reviewed and every single person I plan to review in the future. I want to thank the people that have been patient with my social awkwardness as I try to navigate a creative community. Thank you for helping me create social connections when this is something I have struggled with my whole life. Thank you for understanding that everything I do is with good intent.
There are some people that have been extraordinary to me that I want to recognize and thank in no particular order:
If I left anyone out of this list that feels they should be on it, please do not hesitate to reach out and let me know. My intent is to offer gratitude and not to exclude anyone. Thank you again. You have all taught me so much.
And thank you to the readers that have joined me over the past year and watched as this website transformed. Without you, these words would be lost into the void of the internet. You make these words mean something beyond their creation.
I have a tendency to wander off – in grocery stores, in parking lots, in Costco. I get this trait from my father. At one point this led to an interesting scenario where I was 17 and in the back of a police car, but that’s a story for after I’m dead.
This is why I wear a GPS enabled watch with Find My Friends and cell service. It’s because my husband loves me and genuinely cares for my safety and is the only person on this planet who has access to that information in case he can’t find me one of these times I’ve wandered off somewhere. Flowers and books can be distracting when you’re in the woods.
There are a lot of people like me in this world. And there are a lot of people mixed up in bad 💩 one way or another. I look at these cases and I see missing people that could have been me, but I’ve always found my way back. I’ve never been lost – for some reason I have a confident sense of direction even when in wilderness areas. I can’t explain that part, but I bet many of these people felt the same way – they tripped and fell without a way for someone to find them.
I think about their families and that’s where I get stuck. I struggle with understanding extremes of emotions – I tend to shut down instead. I think about how many of those families also shut down and the generations down the line that shutting down impacts. It’s like a death with no closure – it’s so much worse because it’s unknown.
With these newer methods we are finally putting faces to the skeletons of unidentified remains. These faces have helped family members identify lost loved ones years after their disappearance and finally put what happened to them to rest.
Last autumn I listened to The Disappearance of Des on my commute. It’s a podcast about Desmond Francis Carr – an Australian man who died in 1979. It was when I started listening to missing persons podcasts that I realized just how many unsolved disappearances there are. In fact, every few years a news network like NPR in 2013, or even Local News Stations in 2019 notes just how many cases go unsolved and that some states seem to have more than others – in that report Alaska, Arizona, and Oregon have the top 3 lead, with Georgia, Rhode Island, and Massachusetts having the fewest missing people per 100,000 residents.
According to NAMUS the United States has 4,400 unidentified bodies found every year and 600,000 people go missing. I think of the number of lives impacted by those 600,000 missing stories and then I realize that’s why all of those podcasts exist. That’s why people need to keep talking about these missing people.
Recent Cases In Montana
As of Friday, 56 children are missing in the state of Montana. The demographics break down as follows:
Without equal representation in both sex categories, I can’t run a full analysis, so I had to throw one of the categories out. If we focus on just the white and native children and look to see if there’s any statistically significant difference between the numbers of children missing in these groups, there isn’t (this is assuming boys and girls all have equal representation within the population).
There are going to be those that argue with me about the inaccuracies of this analysis because of the identities of these children. If the identity is impacting the way the child is now presenting to the world that’s important information that people should come forward about, but that is not information available on the sheet provided by Montana DOJ. I am working only with that information.
I ran it with a generous 95% confidence interval:
The chi-square statistic is 0.1922. The p-value is .661126. Not significant at p < .05
The chi-square statistic with Yates correction is 0.0195. The p-value is .889073. Not significant at p < .05.
There is one thing that is significant though – these populations are supposed to be statistically different.
Only 6% of Montana’s population is Native American, so why are 37.5% of missing children from that demographic?
If children were being selected randomly from the population, then the distribution should be proportionate to our population, not insignificantly different between the two groups.
That would mean that if missing children were proportionate we would expect only 3.36/56 missing children to be Native American versus the reality of 21/56 missing children (following the percentages mentioned above). Comparing these proportions with a one-tailed Z-test and a generous significance level of 0.05:
The value of z is -4.0403. The value of p is < .00001. The result is significant at p < .05.